I have missed writing these past several weeks. I have been overwhelmed with touching, sorting, packing and moving a household of 32 years. The funny thing is that the more humanly overwhelmed I have felt, the more strength and stamina I have received from the Lord to complete the project. Everything has fallen into place, with a lot of effort and help from those I love, to bring my 32 year married life into a bedroom with an attached bathroom and a beautiful view of trees and the bird bath Ralph and I enjoyed for so many years. Hope our feathered friends can find me a few miles further south.
The more overwhelmed I have been with the my circumstances, the more blessed I have felt living in the grace and mercy of God. I have seen the hand of God working in the hearts of those around me to walk this road of grief. I feel God’s presence throughout the day urging me to keep moving forward. His overwhelming goodness is like watching a snowstorm, as a little girl, from the warmth of a warm house filled with the smells of my favorite foods and the snapping of wood in the fireplace.
I remember the anxious feeling of waiting for the storm to end and the fun to begin going out into the cold, crispness of winter – all bundled and prepared. That’s how it feels each morning when God equips me for the day that is before me – He bundles me in His assurance and love – I can face another day – I can look forward to another day – life really is good. And when I remove my cold, wet snowsuit of the day, God wraps me in the warmth of my family. My children, my parents, my family, my friends – those are the hot chocolates of life to me and some even come with little tiny marshmallows on top!
The picture attached is an overwhelming last day of moving. I saved my closet for last – oh my! There was no possible way I could take all my shoes to Ben and Hayley’s. By the way, Ralph’s tool collection matched my shoe collection. My helper, Nella, had to try on shoes – just the heels. She prefers heels. We laughed as she clopped around on the bare wooden floors. Hayley laughed at my taste in some shoes and I laughed at myself thinking “what was I ever going to wear those with?” Getting rid of shoes was not really an overwhelming event but, by the end of moving, I was ready to pitch them all out and call it a day. Hayley, and her sensible approach to life, made me sit down and go through each box to make a wise choice on what shoes to keep.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 helped me pitch or pack: “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, buy what is unseen is eternal.”
I say praise God some of those shoes are temporary! Seriously, I praise God because the “things” of life do not make us happy or fulfilled. It is the relationship with Jesus that gives us the hope of eternity and puts all “things” into perspective. Relationships, clothes, work – some things are only momentary and others are eternal building blocks and opportunities. I’m going to keep learning and applying the things God has for me and I am going to trust Him to organize the “closet of my heart.”
I love you!